Our Generation

Read

I just got done reading "The Lightning Thief". That book makes me feel like I to, am a son of a greek mythology god, ha. It would be very badass to have a certain purpose in life, i'd like that atleast. Have help from a god whenever your in trouble, as in facing death. It as an awesome read, and I would recommend it to anyone. I miss skateboarding I wish my damn ankle would just be healed, i'm figuring something is actually wrong with it, but to lazy to go find out.

Support

 

If you haven't got the chance to buy his new cd, you should. It's a shame that after this cd he will most likely be changing his style of music. It's a completely different approach to rap, or hip hop if you will. 

Christmas

 I got my first tattoo today. Reminds me of back home.

Lebrons face after tonight. I love him but I don't know what happen.

Holidays

Merry Christmas from me to you!

Simpler Times

Will Smith Jr.

Stefan Janoski in Inhabitants

Ladies and Gentlemen, Stefan Janoski. He's a monster.

Setting things straight.

As we all know, it's been awhile since i've been on my blog due to technical difficulties, and just other needs needed attended. Got lost in it all. Now that i'm back I like looking back on what I used to write, it's pretty awesome seeing that im still the same person, reguardless if someone thinks otherwise. One thing that stuck out to me like a sore thumb, was my entries about stephanie, and the situations I was being put through at that point and time. Now to set the record straight, I do no longer have a desire, or care that im not with Stephanie. Don't get it confused with that I wouldn't talk to her again, or be her friend. It's just I saw how caught up I was in that. To be honest, that heartbreak was pretty easy to over come, lets roughly say three months it's been. I'm already fully ready and committed for whatever is thrown my way. Don't be mistaken I miss times i've had with her, cause hell it was four years almost, she was like my bestfriend. It's just I realize were not compatible, and were not meant to be. I am no longer feeling how I was in those post, apparently I contradicted my self through all that writing. I knew it at the time too, cause if you read it says "i'll regret writing this tomorrow". You know what? Months down the road, and I still regret saying I was a weak person. I'm stronger then i thought i'd be. With all this weight on my shoulder now with family and all. I've seen what real struggle is, and that love shit, wasn't.

Tattoo

Here is my first tattoo idea, black with a yellow outline instead. I don't like red that much so i went with pirates shiz.This would be sometime else, I want this flying upwards. Idk where though, just a cool thought.

happy fun montageeeee

A much more simpler time. I miss this, and you all.

Trials

It's been along time since I was on here. Alot of things changed probably alot for any of you to grasp, from loosing the love of my life, to my dad having a stroke. It all comes so fast; life that is. I just have to take it for what it is. As I grow older, I feel my days growing faster. It's insane i'll look at the clock and be in awe how fast time has flown by. I will tell you all that i've got on a better path too, not that i was in any danger, but if i was it was danger of failure. I'm glad that my dad has tought me to be the man that i am today, to learn through trial and error, I hope one day i'll be just as good as a dad as my father was to me. I hope he gets a full and speedy recovery, no matter if we get mad at eachother from time to time we but heads, we as in my family need that man. He's the inspiration that keeps me moving to be a better man than I have ever dreamed of becoming. I hope I don't fail him, and funny thing is. He doesn't even know how deeply I admire and cherish him. I'm just not one to tell feelings really. Call it my integrity for not letting me show my weak side. But I love you dad, I know you'll beast this shit. Also on a more positive note, i'm back in school. Yeah i know crazy huh? I just told myself that i got to get this together, I got a life to live, and I want to fully enjoy it as much as I can. No matter what is thrown at me, i'll rise above it. When it comes to love, im just not a part of it anymore. I've learned from my trials that its just not something that it is on the movies. I'll be content with just chilling right now, I don't need any stress from a girl. I still miss the times I had with her, but I know I could never go back to the way things were. I'm a stronger kid then I used to be, I won't take no nonsense anymore. I'll always have respect for her, and of course i'll always be there. Just the kind of guy I am. Also been threw a little lust sqwabble recently too. It's all good, things are meant to be, some aren't im glad the symptoms shown before it was already to deep. Alot of my outlooks have changed, some for good some for bad. My mom always asks me why im so carefree no matter what the tragedy is, I tell her simply because im always expecting the worst of the situation, because to be honest. This is life thats usually what will happen. I havn't had someone show me diffrently, or remotely show they care to show or prove thats not what lifes about. I'll still be on my pursuit of happiness no doubt, i wont be a downer. I just know that life isn't fair. I want to be an inspiration one day to someone. I really can't stress that enough, if someone walked up to me today and told me i'd helped that somewhere in there life. I could die happily. I love making YOU happy. I know im not a big name, and this is all probably irrelevant, but trust me, I will make myself engraved in your head one day. I have big expectations and bigger dreams. I hope soon I can start recording. I've got a lot to say and little time it stays in my brain cause my mind is a constant struggle, and i mean that. Be easy. till next time.